you go on ahead (trumpet trumpet II)

Keyboard came very early. This is going to be...difficult.

It's good though, to have something to focus on.

paper lace / sunset rubdown

I heard you're suffering

Come be a wild thing

Come run with Jackie, me, and this Lady.

So I did end up getting the keyboard that I wanted. It's going to be here on March 14th.

I know it's early to say anything considering its not here yet but...I feel good about this.

lucky ones / lana del rey

Finally, you and me are the lucky ones this time.

Been listening to some music lately that has been making me think of my life and what I am and what I am not doing with it.

I don't really think I've been doing things in a way that makes me look back and say yes, yes this is what I wanted all along. I am trying to figure out how to change that. One thing I think I want to do is purchase a keyboard. 88 weighted keys with a stand that can fit in the corner of my room easily. I think learning that and giving an outlet for everything that I wish I had in me would be a good thing; a thing that could make me feel.

I don't know if this is necessarily some kind of "come back" into my blog. Because I mean really, I've had this thing for about 3 years now, a little more. I deleted all of my past blogs because I was attempting to reinvent myself. I guess you guys can judge how well I've done on that.

Don't really want to over-do anything either so I'm going to keep everything very short on here from now on.